After Death- What is Left Behind????

You received the phone call, your loved one has died.

Over the past two years your relationship has been frayed, separated by Secrets & Lies.

As executor of the will, you find there are more legal ties.

More family, people you don’t know, more Secrets & Lies

Money changes people they all seek what has been left by your loved one the decease

You’ve been put in an uncomfortable position, you need an emotional release.

Your girl is a “gold digger” this you already know,

With the estate making you wealthy your relationship is about to blow

There’s one you’ve been talking to, she’s been tugging at your heart

You spend the week spending steamy moments with her setting off emotional sparks

Neither of you know the connection you’ve found a new beginning, a new love

But from the grave your father’s Secrets & Lies reveal another shock, you need help from above.

You find yourself dealing with a wife and family you never knew he had

You look at those expecting part of his estate and now you’re questioning “Dad”

Can a life that held Secrets & Lies reach you from the grave?

Can your family be the same, can new relationships be saved?

Will the wife finally confront the mistress who has been in her marriage from the start?

Will the mistress find she is the only woman who held the deceased close to her heart?

Can the son understand why his father didn’t tell his Secrets are there more Lies does he have an Alibi?

Will he lose his new love or find the truth while keeping his own secrets those he must hide.

Will the Mince family be secured as they were before D.Q.’s death?

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The Voice of the Abused

Love Experiences

(The Voice of the Abused)

Been through love experiences and still remain confused

I don’t quite understand “Love Terms” I thought it involved two.

Two people with an understanding,

patience and desires to walk down life’s road

Not always hand in hand

But willing to carry the others load.

Two people who set forth to reach similar goals

And when there are differences assuming the supportive role

Two people with undying faith, belief and trust

Realizing to have a marriage these parts are a must.

Been through loves experiences, been hurt in the past

Turned my back, walked away, never knowing

The hurt would resurface this fast.

Had that fantasy dream, that “Happily Ever After” lie

Went through that depressed state thinking I would die.

Pulled myself through it all with friends and prayers to God above

And just as foolish as before asked only to be loved.

Went in and out of relationships not wanting to be on the rebound.

Also didn’t look or check for a new foundation starting on solid ground.

Fell into a friendship, a one sided love affair,

Stayed close to ten long years knowing I really didn’t care.

No, I couldn’t love again, not release the feelings in me

No, I didn’t trust the relationship

Just took what I could with no love guarantees.

Then you reentered my life, a puppy love from puberty

I knew God had answered my prayers at last

A love I thought was meant to be.

It didn’t take love to revel itself, a relationship again

With hurt and pain

You had past thoughts of battered love

And treated me as if things were the same.

Never mind the levels we climbed together

The accomplishments we made

Now that I look over this, I’m not just depressed

I’m Afraid.

Afraid of you and the things you do and say

Afraid of the marks it leaves on my mind, body and heart

This is not love, now again I pray for a new start

I am drifting into a zone of unknown silence

I realize I am becoming a victim of Domestic Violence.

If you can’t love me as you said, you would in the beginning

Walk away leave me alone,

My children nor my life needs a devastating ending.

In the words of some wise man or maybe just a thoughtful quote,

He who truly loves never grabs his spouse or loved one

By the throat.

These are my feelings and thoughts

As again I stand confused

I know what comes around goes around,

I wonder who I abused.

I’ll close my eyes again tonight crying as I pray,

God grant me forgiveness, peace and solitude

And if you find extra love……..

Please send it my way.

Thoughts & Reflections©2000

Author Nanette M. Buchanan

Family Secrets Lies & Alibi’s-Another Great Review

Family By Any Other Name 3.5 Stars- Apooo Review
By     Angelia Menchan “acvermen.blogspot.com”

Family, Secrets, Lies and Alibis by Nanette Buchanan introduces us to D.Q., a man with two families. For over thirty years he takes care of his wife, Tonya, and their children. At the same time he is providing for his mistress, Nikki, and their son Rell, while actually living in both households. Rell is under the impression that his dad walks on water and can do no wrong. His dad has been there all his life, only missing when he was working at night. An argument Rell overhears in his early twenties exposes his father’s double life, causing Rell to relocate to get away from the lies. The family he always thought he had was nothing but hidden secrets.

When D.Q dies, Rell, as the executor of the will, is summoned home. Nikki was separated from D.Q for years but remained in contact with him. Tonya, on the other hand stayed married to D.Q. even with the knowledge of Nikki and Rell and feels that the death of her estranged husband will be her comeuppance. His money should be there for her in ways her husband never was. What she does not know is that D.Q. has surprises for all of them, especially Rell.

Rell’s discovery of all of the lies and skeletons sends him on a path to discovery, while at the same time causing him to create secrets and alibis of his own. Family, Secrets, Lies and Alibis is a face-paced read full of interesting story lines. Occasionally the story seems improbable but does not stop the book from being interesting and entertaining. I recommend this novel to those who enjoy contemporary fiction filled with drama.

Angelia Menchan
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Who Is Being Cheated If They Know???

The Phone Call

I got a phone call today.
The caller asked for me by name.
Stating her need to clear any confusion
brought on by you and your love games.

She said if I allowed myself to listen just for a moment or two.
Without interruption, questions and accusations,
we both would know what to do about our love for you.

I agreed hesitantly, though curious
I was eager and willing to hear
I braced myself wondering, what could it be?
What did I have to fear?

She talked clearly, her conversation was pleasant.
As she shared her memories of your accomplishments,
dreams, and your wedding vows.
She got emotional excusing herself often explaining,
losing her lifelong mate to me would not be allowed.

As I took the time to digest her news of being your loving wife,
I thought of our accomplishments, dreams and your promises.
To be with me the rest of your life.

She went on to say as your family grew.
You became an attentive husband and father one who was full of pride.
As I heard her express her love for the children, her love for you.
I slowly began to cry.

I thought I couldn’t hold my words any longer,
but I did as she described how your affection for her seemed unchanged.
She heard you on the phone one night whispering,
laughing and calling my name.

She said it didn’t stop there you had an excuse for the call.
She understood you wouldn’t tell the truth until your back was against the wall.

You left careless clues, our created memories.
They became definite signs.
Your wife confirmed her suspicions.
You and I shared a love together for quite some time.

As she promised her conversation wasn’t long.
She even apologized, assuming calling me may have been wrong.

As the tears rolled down my face, my anger caused me to just stare.
She called my name repeatedly asking was I still there.

I didn’t know what to say or how to respond.
But I knew that asking her name couldn’t do any harm.

She said, “Call me Mrs. Nobody, for that is how I feel
and you are doomed to be the next Mrs. Nobody if you don’t find a love that’s real.”

Quiet Times @2006
Author, Nanette M. Buchanan
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New Author, New Drama- An Interview with Author Nanette M. Buchanan

Q. Tell me about yourself…
A. I am a wife, and a mother of three children. My husband and I are blessed for they are all doing quite well, married and are parents. I have four grandchildren and I am awaiting the birth of my son’s first child, due this month. I have always been an advocate for children and after working with children for more than twenty years, as a Track Coach and various community programs in Newark, New Jersey, I decided to work and promote programs that would help prevent our youth from falling victim to the judicial system. I began working as a Senior Corrections Officer for the State of New Jersey. After ten years of working inside the State institutions I accepted the position of Instructor at the Training Academy. I have been in that position for five years and since have obtained over 30 certifications. I have been named Officer of the Year for 2008.
Q. How long have you been writing?
A. My writing began in college while attending Rutgers University in New Brunswick, New Jersey. It started as putting simple “Thoughts” on paper……idle words that I soon realized were reflections of my feelings. I began to collect them. I have three volumes of poetry. “Thoughts”, “Thoughts & Reflections”, and “Quiet Times” I began writing children stories for younger children who were beginning to read and always asking why? Questions about, “Why do we go to the dentist?, Why do birds fly south for the winter?, Why are lions the king of the jungle?”. I have written five children stories. I took on novels as a personal challenge and to answer questions about topics that most people would rather avoid. I have written five novels since I started three years ago. My only published work is “Family Secrets…..Lies & Alibi’s”.
Q..What inspired you to write “Family Secrets…..Lies & Alibis”?
A. There were a few things about the storyline that affected me personally and was shown on the television often. My book takes the topic a step further answering my questions, “What if?” and “Why?”. I don’t know my father’s sons and I have always wondered if our paths have crossed. My husbands sister worked with me for ten years before we knew they were brother and sister. My questions was what if, unknowingly, I dated or fell in love with my brother. What if….no one knew we were dating so they couldn’t warn me. What if we found out after the death of our father….but it was too late to step away from the relationship? Then the question would be why did our father not tell, why do families know about other children outside of the marriages or relationships and fail to introduce them. What happens when it’s too late. Those questions are in both my debut novel “Family Secrets…Lies & Alibi’s” and the sequel “A Different Kind of Love”.
Q. What motto do you live by that helps keep you inspired?
A. I am because I am……and for today it is the best I can be. I believe I am the only one who can control who I am or who I am to be. If I settle I have conceded that for today I am at my best. I rise the next day seeking again to be the best.
Q. Who are some of the authors you most admire? And why
A. I’m really bad at reciting best books by the authors I admire. I try not to read just one genre. Iyala Vanzant, TD Jakes…..inspirational. I need that in my life but I’m not limited to their writings. I love suspenseful writings…John Grisholm, James Patterson, Mary Higgins Clark, Walter Mosley, E.Lynn Harris, Omar Tyree, Valerie Wesley, and I could go on. I love books that I have to read because it keeps me engrossed and I can’t quite figure out where the author is taking me. If I can, I put the book down. I’m getting reacquainted with my reading as I now have more time to give to it. I have a never ending wish list with the new authors, Linda Herman, Tamara Grant, Allyson Deese, Victoria Wells, Maria Cook, Gayle Sloan, Hazel Mills……and again the list goes on.
Q. What is the greatest challenge of being an author?
A. I find myself writing as I love to read. I don’t like the book that gives pages and pages of description that has nothing to do with the story. As a writer I find it is necessary. The audience needs the painting to be complete with color and a character of its own. The descriptive pages bring that. Closing the story, not making the length of the book too long is sometimes difficult as well. Before I know it I’m at two hundred and fifty pages and just reaching the climax.
Q. What are your upcoming projects/works in progress?
A. I am in the process seeking to take “Family Secrets….Lies & Alibi’s to another level with it’s sequel. I hope to release the sequel “A Different Kind of Love” this summer. I am actively seeking an artist for my children stories and set to begin to write my next novel.
Q. What are your literary long term goals?
A. I would love as any aspiring author to be successful in my craft. I want to put my poetry on stage as a completed performance. Similar to when poetry was done “in the round”. I would love to have a film or a play based on one of my novels. I want to be a complete author. I don’t want to do all of what it takes to have a successful book but I do want to know all of what it takes to make it successful.
Q. Give me an example of your creativity.
A. I went to do a reading at a grammar school for a group of third graders. The school was supposed to pick the material and we “the celebrities” would read for an hour and then rotate groups. The class had a substitute who hadn’t picked a book because the ones in the class had been read by the students more than once. I was unprepared. I turned the class into a poetry writing class. Quickly I asked what they all liked to do in school, what subject or activity. Then we began writing line after line about the topic, the teacher, their reactions to the activity and why they liked it. It ended up being about ten lines, rhyming of course and very well written. The class was acknowledged by the principal for their creativity.
Q. Have you considered starting your own business?
A. Yes, I have a company that started from my writing poems. I Pen Designs. My site is www.ipendesigns.com. We handle events of all sorts. I do invitations, flyers, business cards, favors for the events, centerpieces, wedding consultations and so much more.
Q. How do you define success and how do you measure up to your own definition?
A. Success is a peaceful plateau. It’s a level of satisfaction. That’s why it doesn’t always last long. It’s a state of mind. We as a society want to put people where we feel they would be successful. Success comes with the internal desire to be satisfied. That’s why finance doesn’t equal success. Sometimes the poorest person is successful because they’re on a peaceful plateau of satisfaction. I believe I headed toward success.
Q. What are your greatest strengths?
A. I think my greatest strength is being objective. In order to be objective I have to always keep my mind open. I have to be willing to say I’m wrong, apologize when I’ve made errors or hurt someone. I have to be willing to admit I don’t know it all. This strength has allowed me to grow as a Christian, woman, mother, wife, employee, and as a writer.
Q. What are your greatest weaknesses?
A. I tend to be impatient. I want to see the results if not hurry them on. I’m always wishing for the peek at the crystal ball.
Q. Where do you see yourself five years from now?
A. Successful…..I’m putting things in place now for my departure from State employment. I want to continue teaching on the level of Law Enforcement Training. I want to do that as well as write full time.
Q. Tell me about a situation when your work was criticized and how that situation may have changed your literary path.
A. As a new author I had to learn that it’s like the birth of your child. Everyone understands it’s a new born baby but not everyone loves them like you do. Some will look under the blanket and see your child’s potential, their ability to grow and blossom into someone that you will craft and make the best, others will close the blanket up snuggly and tell you they just saw eight other cute babies and you’re in front of eight more. I think I would prefer the critiques to push my stroller a little in the direction I need to go….but that’s just how a mother would think.
Q. What advice would you give to aspiring writers?
A. Write….Write….Continue to write. Not every poem I’ve written is my best but I’ve found an audience that has embraced that poem that I keep hidden. I feel it will be the same for my novels and children stories. Know the game…..the rules. What’s acceptable and expected. Promote yourself and learn to push when you get pushed. There’s more than one road to successful writing. Find your road and don’t expect everyone to be on the road waving. It may be lonely but if successful writing is your goal you can’t get their complaining about those you meet on the way.